Can you see the clouds in the sky in my photo? It’s what we call June gloom. Every day clouds. Usually we are hitting the high 90’s (32C) in June. We had an incredibly gloomy May, we call it May Grey. It’s really common here to have May Grey and June Gloom every year but usually the sun shines by noon! Not this year, nope, grey clouds all day long. Which leads me to my smiles. Where have they gone? The sun definitely helps me smile and with it’s absence it makes my feelings of sadness intensify as I mourn the loss of my sweet horse Chloe. So I decided it would be cathartic to share a beautiful poem that a friend at the barn gave to me and I wanted it written somewhere so that I can go back and read again. This blog will be the perfect place. And I want to share a few more photos of my girl, I do miss her so much. ❤
A Horse's Wish
If the day should come when I'm in pain, And you know I won't be well again, Promise me you will do what must be done, if this is the battle that cannot be won. It'll break your heart, but please be kind, don't let your grieving sway your mind, for this is when, you will let me see, just how much you do love me.
Together we have had happy years, the future now, can hold no fears! Please don't let me suffer so.... When the time comes, please let me go. For a kind vet please will you send? But please stay with me till the very end. Hold me steady and talk to me, till my bright eyes..... no longer see.
In time I hope you'll come to see, it's the last kindest thing you can do for me. One more time please stroke my mane and know that I'll have no more pain. And don't be sad that it was you, who decided this was what to do. We've been such buddies through the years, don't let me be the cause of tears.
You'll always see me grazing now, with the sun upon my back. Painful limbs won't tire me now, however long the hack. I live now in your heart and mind, a lovely place to stay, and what you have in memories, no one can take away.
~Anonymous
Forever in my heart Miss Chloe!! I just LOVE this memory, what a beautiful girl. Her and I shared so much together. Her life made my life so much richer. She lived through the passing of my Morgan, named Ranger. She was 6 years old when he passed away. He was 19 years old and she saw me through those sad days. Chloe and I rode all over the trails in our town here in Norco, CA. She also helped me get through the passing of my sister’s horse which I adopted and owned for 5 years. Here are some photos of Ranger, Zack and Chloe. Ranger was a sweet boy, Zack and Chloe were quite the pair! ❤
Zack was so attached to Chloe, and Chloe enjoyed his company immensely but wasn’t worried if he wasn’t nearby. Now they are together and how ethereal one of my favorite photos I’ve ever taken when my phone flipped this mirrored photo of my ponies reflections in the pond of water in the arena after a very rainy day. I can’t make it up, the mirror of them is pretty clear and probably why my phone flipped the photo. I especially love Chloe’s face in the reflection, there is just something different and so cool about this photo I thought it would be great to share again, and it makes me smile.
My beautiful horses together again, looking down on us and helping me find my smile. I enjoyed them all so much and they have a safe place in my heart. Thank you for letting me share and reminisce as I shed a few tears… tears of missing them but tears of gratefulness as they brought so much to me in this wonderful life of mine. <3<3<3
It’s been four weeks since I lost my sweet girl and I am finally figuring out a routine with Murphy. It has taken time and I can say that my bond has gotten even stronger with him. Horses are very sensitive and I could tell he knows I feel sad. He has put his head against my chest, his head is huge since he is bigger than the average horse and he would not rest it there for long but long enough to make me feel like I was hugged in a horsey way. He is rather mouthy which means he likes to nibble the lead rope or my sweater but in these recent weeks he has been very gentle and easy with his antics. There is a definite calmness between the two of us as we connect each day. He is helping me find my smile! 😀
These two photos are from this weekend. He was eating his lunch after a lovely ride and after I took the photo of him eating in the bucket, I whistled to him as I wanted him to look at me for another photo. Instead of just looking he walked over to me! Awww, he just melts my heart. The sweetest horse as I snapped the photo as he started to take a step. After I petted his nose he turned around and went back to eating. I’m smiling, it’s the little things. ❤
I am slowly feeling better realizing that life goes on and so onward we must go. I thought by now we would be in the heat of summer but we are continuing with coolness which I am making sure I enjoy. Murphy and I are enjoying each day together which makes me smile!
I think I’m finding my smile ~ 😀
~Diana ❤
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